I found out that I got the financing for my RV on my 3 month anniversary, March 23rd.
I am heading out on my journey on my 6 month anniversary, May 23rd.
Neither was intentional, so the accidental symbolism is certainly meaningful to me.
Many people who care a lot about me have expressed sincere concern that I will fall prey to some criminal injury as I make this trip across the continent.
I received this email TWICE yesterday from concerned family members. I am sure many of you have received this and also know that is an urban legend [...]
I feel like I can finally breathe. I didn’t even know how tense I was. That I was holding my breath and clenching my jaw.
I am back at Pedernales Falls State Park, after several days parked outside of my house getting rid of things.
I still feel a very real separation anxiety before I let go [...]
I didn’t realize that I had stopped going to my favorite restaurant (of fifteen years) until about a week ago. I was out running errands when, just as strangely as the habit of going there unconsciously disappeared from my mind, it mysteriously reemerged.
I drove to Thai Noodle House, near the University of Texas campus, and [...]
“We needed a place for the freaks, the weirdos, and the human beings.”
It is the last evening of the NuRVers Rally and co-founder and organizer Kevin is addressing the group. We’ve just finished up four days of potluck dinners (with organic and vegan options), educational seminars (veggie oil conversions for your RV), jewelry making, costume [...]
I pull in to the state park, overtired and lonely, more interested in getting some cheap hook ups and a private parking spot than viewing the nearby series of waterfalls.
It is an unusually cold and wet day and the park is empty. As I pull up to my site, the damp fire pit, empty picnic [...]
By Jennifer
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Also posted in I did it!, afraid, beautiful places, loneliness, mental health, national/state parks, overwhelm
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Tagged I did it!, learning, overwhelm, reflections (mine), solo
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February 22, 2010 – 6:00 am
Remember when I told you I was starting to realize that I was lonely? Well, that really took me on a wild head trip. I mean, not only did I have this new realization to contend with, but it scrambled a lot of my thinking with regard to solo travel.
So, I haven’t got it all [...]
February 8, 2010 – 6:00 am
I have been radically rethinking my radical rethinking and my brain is worn out. I am learning so much from you as I plan and process. It is impossible for me to imagine what this ’solitary’ journey would look like without you.
One thing I’ve realized is that I’ve woven in a lot of different things [...]
January 12, 2010 – 6:00 am
As I’ve mentioned before, I am on meds. They are a miracle!
The type of medication I take is not really an anti-depressant, but is classified as a mood stabilizer. That means it is supposed to lessen the punch of your ups and downs, but it does not completely eradicate them. (It’s kind of like being [...]
January 6, 2010 – 6:00 am
If you’ve been reading for a while, you’ll remember that I used to have panic attacks about this blog. (I mean, really serious anxiety attacks where I almost deleted the whole thing in the middle of the night because I was freaking out.)
I was thinking about this because yesterday Joey (the only person who reads [...]
January 4, 2010 – 6:00 am
“You might have hair loss and weight gain.” The hippy-lady psychiatrist is laid back, unlike any I’d met with before, so I am trying to keep my typical suspicious hostility in check.
“Well, I have a lot of hair and am thin, so maybe that won’t be too bad.”
“The hair loss can be patchy and the [...]
December 23, 2009 – 6:00 am
“Here comes Meals on Wheels,” a bored voice flatly calls out.
I am ineffectively trying to keep two bags of food from falling off my makeshift dolly when I hear the woman announce my arrival. I’m in the lobby of a large low income housing facility and a bit turned around.
“Hi,” I reply to the woman, [...]
December 21, 2009 – 6:00 am
Interstate 35 is congested and I’m stuck behind a slow moving tractor trailer. Eyeing the passing lane, I realize that my economy hatchback can’t garner enough speed to safely move into the faster traffic.
I’ve made it halfway home and have about a hundred miles to go. I slow down behind the truck, keeping my eye [...]
December 18, 2009 – 6:00 am
I haven’t figured that out yet. I am completely worn out. (I am still sober.)
I recognize that there are no perfect solutions, but my brain sometimes won’t stop as I continually go in search of one.
As has been so kindly suggested, I need to stop writing about RV shopping and selection for a few days [...]
December 11, 2009 – 6:00 am
I keep wanting to write about my not-drinking and my going to AA, but everything I write I throw away. It just comes out too weird and contorted.
So, I am just going to write a big messy post about it.
I’ve been going to meetings, but haven’t been sharing or introducing myself. They ask for people [...]
