Category Archives: negative moods

My Pre-Departure Still-To-Do List

I leave in less than three weeks.
Despite my Goodwill runs and street side give-aways, I still have a lot of stuff.
I thought I would have a garage sale, but, really, I have already given away most of the good stuff. The process still feels kind of overwhelming, so I’ve decided to take it in steps.
Every [...]

Solo RVing

I pull in to the state park, overtired and lonely, more interested in getting some cheap hook ups and a private parking spot than viewing the nearby series of waterfalls.
It is an unusually cold and wet day and the park is empty. As I pull up to my site, the damp fire pit, empty picnic [...]

Two weeks in the RV

Two weeks in and it is already a journey!
Strangely, this experience reminds me of when I first enrolled in graduate school – feeling the fulfillment of a long time dream, but also feeling the terror and exhaustion that comes with change and immersion learning.
It is not a terror that makes me wish I could return [...]

Living in my car, uncut

Less exciting than it sounds. I am too overwhelmed to write a blog post! In lieu of that, here are some snapshots and unedited videos of my first week in the RV.

First night in RV Park transcript

With Joey transcript
I am alternatively thrilled and terrified, still. I love it so much, but have moments of really [...]

My New Plan

(Editor’s note: Apologies if you got an email with an old post yesterday. I was trying to take two posts off of private and they re-posted.)
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Realizing that in my neighborhood home prices were going down and rent prices were going up, I decided to take my home off the market and list it for rent [...]

A few changes

Remember when I told you I was starting to realize that I was lonely? Well, that really took me on a wild head trip. I mean, not only did I have this new realization to contend with, but it scrambled a lot of my thinking with regard to solo travel.
So, I haven’t got it all [...]

Blogus Interruptus

I need to take a short break from this blog. I am sick of myself and my writing is starting to feel like narcissistic navel gazing.
All of my plans are still on. But, of course, I need to be more flexible and patient with regard to this journey.  (Two things that seem to be a [...]

panic

I am kind of freaking out about how much information I post on this blog, but I can’t really come up with a logical reason for why I should be.
At this point, it is not so much that I am afraid people are going to find out these things about me (okay, maybe there are [...]

RVers Gone Wild

I have spent a lot of time alone in this house over the last two and a half years. I have gone days without stepping outside, tearing through a stack of books on any new and random topic. I have played computer games, drank wine, shopped online, called my husband at the Gulf coast.
I have [...]

Auto Mechanics, day one

“Do you know where the Automotive Tech course is meeting?”
I’ve walked down an alleyway and am standing in front of a man working in a garage. Nothing around here looks like a classroom.
“Which class are you looking for?” turning toward me as he wipes his hands on a rag.
“Automotive Tech.” I start to blush as [...]

Auto mechanics classes start today!

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This afternoon I have my first auto mechanics class.  I am really nervous, but really excited!
This is a real technical program to become a professional auto mechanic. Who do you think will be in my class?  It is limited to twelve students. I hope to God that I am not the only woman.
I take one [...]

If only I could write my posts ahead of time…

As I’ve mentioned before, I am on meds. They are a miracle!
The type of medication I take is not really an anti-depressant, but is classified as a mood stabilizer. That means it is supposed to lessen the punch of your ups and downs, but it does not completely eradicate them. (It’s kind of like being [...]

I did it

I shared in the meeting last night. I had all these nice things that I was going to say. Instead I said a bunch of stuff that I didn’t expect. Actually, I said a bunch of stuff I didn’t even know I was thinking and/or feeling.
I called a lady in AA and talked to her [...]

A brown turtleneck

I went online to buy this brown turtleneck that was on sale for $25.90.

Then I decided that since I wear these almost everyday, I should order four.
Then I saw this Steve Madden jacket. Man, that would look great over a brown turtleneck.

50% off and marked down to $48.90.
Then I saw these boots. Wow, this is [...]

Lamictal

“You might have hair loss and weight gain.” The hippy-lady psychiatrist is laid back, unlike any I’d met with before, so I am trying to keep my typical suspicious hostility in check.
“Well, I have a lot of hair and am thin, so maybe that won’t be too bad.”
“The hair loss can be patchy and the [...]