I had a wonderful visit in Denton. Friends and family drove up from different parts of Dallas/Fort Worth for an unexpected send off dinner party.
I have shared so much of this process with you, that I hardly had a sense they were aware of it. Almost everyone was enthusiastic and excited for me.
But, with my [...]
I found out that I got the financing for my RV on my 3 month anniversary, March 23rd.
I am heading out on my journey on my 6 month anniversary, May 23rd.
Neither was intentional, so the accidental symbolism is certainly meaningful to me.
Many people who care a lot about me have expressed sincere concern that I will fall prey to some criminal injury as I make this trip across the continent.
I received this email TWICE yesterday from concerned family members. I am sure many of you have received this and also know that is an urban legend [...]
I woke up to intense thunderstorms.
I opened the windows and watched and listened to the rain as my motorhome moved and heaved with each gust of wind.
I drank peppermint tea and wrote in my journal.
Another beautiful morning.
I’m spending a week at the Gulf Coast as I prepare for my trip.
I feel like I can finally breathe. I didn’t even know how tense I was. That I was holding my breath and clenching my jaw.
I am back at Pedernales Falls State Park, after several days parked outside of my house getting rid of things.
I still feel a very real separation anxiety before I let go [...]
I didn’t realize that I had stopped going to my favorite restaurant (of fifteen years) until about a week ago. I was out running errands when, just as strangely as the habit of going there unconsciously disappeared from my mind, it mysteriously reemerged.
I drove to Thai Noodle House, near the University of Texas campus, and [...]
I pull in to the state park, overtired and lonely, more interested in getting some cheap hook ups and a private parking spot than viewing the nearby series of waterfalls.
It is an unusually cold and wet day and the park is empty. As I pull up to my site, the damp fire pit, empty picnic [...]
By Jennifer
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Also posted in I did it!, afraid, beautiful places, loneliness, national/state parks, overwhelm, reflections (mine)
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Tagged I did it!, learning, overwhelm, reflections (mine), solo
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An extraordinary morning of heavy rain followed by blue skies and lots of birds, including three redbirds, playing in the trees outside my window.
February 24, 2010 – 6:00 am
I am the worst AA student. (But I am a good mechanics student! Okay, back to the topic….) I hear people in the meetings say, “I was lucky to have the gift of desperation.” Well, I guess I am unlucky with that. I am lucky in that I recognize that I cannot drink successfully, but [...]
February 22, 2010 – 6:00 am
Remember when I told you I was starting to realize that I was lonely? Well, that really took me on a wild head trip. I mean, not only did I have this new realization to contend with, but it scrambled a lot of my thinking with regard to solo travel.
So, I haven’t got it all [...]
February 9, 2010 – 6:00 am
I’m happy, I’m healthy, but I can’t write about myself anymore.
I will still post irregularly if something significant/relevant happens (and certainly when I start traveling), but this current micro-self-analysis isn’t working for me right now.
I am actually in the process of winding down my psychoanalysis as well. I think this blog, in many ways, has [...]
February 8, 2010 – 6:00 am
I have been radically rethinking my radical rethinking and my brain is worn out. I am learning so much from you as I plan and process. It is impossible for me to imagine what this ’solitary’ journey would look like without you.
One thing I’ve realized is that I’ve woven in a lot of different things [...]
February 4, 2010 – 6:00 am
I need to take a short break from this blog. I am sick of myself and my writing is starting to feel like narcissistic navel gazing.
All of my plans are still on. But, of course, I need to be more flexible and patient with regard to this journey. (Two things that seem to be a [...]
February 1, 2010 – 6:00 am
I am kind of freaking out about how much information I post on this blog, but I can’t really come up with a logical reason for why I should be.
At this point, it is not so much that I am afraid people are going to find out these things about me (okay, maybe there are [...]
January 29, 2010 – 6:00 am
I have spent a lot of time alone in this house over the last two and a half years. I have gone days without stepping outside, tearing through a stack of books on any new and random topic. I have played computer games, drank wine, shopped online, called my husband at the Gulf coast.
I have [...]
