About Me

The short version of this blog:

Mom and SilasI had a suicidal breakdown in the winter of 2008-2009, the mid-point of what would end up being about three years of Jungian psychoanalysis.

I started to get better in the spring and, after a summer and fall of car travel and camping, decided that I wanted to radically simplify and move into an RV.

In March of 2010, I moved into my tiny RV and drove 10,000 solo miles from the Texas Gulf Coast to the Arctic Ocean.

I spent a year and a half living on the road before stopping with the intent of becoming a single mother by choice.

I traveled solo to Africa, where I was able to receive affordable fertility treatment (via egg donor/sperm donor). I gave birth to my beautiful son on 2012.

In 2013, I decided I wanted to get us back on the road, but this time in a van.

The not-short version of this blog:

I had a suicidal breakdown in the fall and winter of 2008-2009. (I was in the middle of what would be about three years of psychoanalysis, and it was the darkest moment (months!) before the light.)

These power tools kinda rock

I started to get better in the spring and spent a magical summer restoring a rundown trailer that my family used when I was a child. It was a summer of healing, of hope, and of psychological and spiritual renewal.

Returning to my Austin home in August, I quickly planned a second trip, taking off in my car (hence the name of this blog, livinginmycar) and camping (for the first time ever!) through Utah. I was making my way to the North Rim of the Grand Canyon, where I ended up drinking too much and ruining my trip. (The drinking part wasn’t disclosed on my blog.)

When I got home, I decided I had to get out of my over-spending, over-consuming, and over-drinking lifestyle. I set the goal to radically simplify, buy (and move in to) my first RV, and drive from the Gulf of Mexico to the Arctic Ocean the following summer.

Concerned over my ignorance about cars, I enrolled in a professional automotive mechanics course.

Terrified of driving a big rig, I got a local dealership to teach me how to drive.

oil change at accOverwhelmed by the cost of upgrades needed to list my house, I started doing the improvements myself.

Strangers started reading my otherwise anonymous blog and I began to blurt out my darkest secrets while having panic attacks about doing so

I quit drinking, tried to quit shopping, and got frustrated with RV dealerships who wouldn’t take me seriously.

I got overwhelmed and quit blogging.

I couldn’t sell my home, so put it up for rent. I returned to blogging when I bought my RV in March of 2010.

I had a series of early mishaps, a few meltdowns, and accidentally ran my Mini into a roof.

I finally got rid of the last of my things, prepared for my trip to the Arctic, and, in May, started my journey north.

I made it!

The Arctic Ocean

I reflected on some early lessons, got really lost in the Rocky Mountains, and started to love my new life in the RV.

I drove across the United States and into Canada, through Alberta, (where I had a meltdown), across the Rockies (where I became a bit terrorized) and into the Yukon (where I ran out of fuel).

I broke off from the Alaska Highway and headed toward the Northwest Territories, finally making it to Mile Zero of the perilous Dempster Highway that would take me into the Arctic.

Humbled by the challenge and awed by the beauty, in July I arrived at the Arctic Ocean.

I drove back down the Dempster and made my way to Alaska, where I met up with my husband. I spent a few weeks traveling, then, missing my husband desperately, booked it home.

Let's go to Alaska!

After the Dempster

I got bored, grieved over my sister’s appropriation of my restored trailer, crisscrossed the United States in a bit of confusion, then started reflecting more deeply on my journey.

Without a plan, I decided to headed west.

I spent the winter at the Gulf Coast, where I realized that I wanted to become a mother, despite my partner’s inability to do so with me.

I also decided that I wanted to  help women who are trying to exit the sex industry.

Then I brought the blog to a close.

In April of 2012, I had my baby boy!

Now, I am in the process of getting BACK on the road, with my little boy in tow.

Mommy and baby

Mommy and baby

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(This was my “About Me” page from July 2009 to October 2010.)

nothingtosay

I had a mental breakdown in the fall/winter of 2008-9. That gave me a lot of time to think about what I needed to be happy (or at least not completely suicidal).

I decided that I wanted to sell everything so that I could have more material and financial freedom.

This blog starts after I decided not to blow my head off.

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Update: I got rid of my stuff and now I live and drive around in my RV. Right now I’m driving from the Texas Gulf Coast to the Arctic Ocean.