I know this blog is probably considered an RV blog, since that is mostly what I have been focused on over the last year or more. But, for me, it has really been a blog about my psychological and spiritual healing resulting from my three years of intensive psychoanalysis.
That journey (which started about two years before this blog did) took me from suicidal depression, compulsive shopping, and dangerous drinking habits to a more contented life of simplicity and sobriety. It has also been a long journey from isolation toward connection; that is where things are taking a turn in my RV lifestyle.
I’ve been quiet off and on since late last year because I’ve had a few things on my mind that I didn’t want to write about.
I’ve realized that I don’t want to be away from my husband anymore. I am able to spend extended time around the person I love most without feeling a desperate need to run away for days at a time. We’ve decided to find some place where we can more comfortably live under the same roof.
I am also revisiting my desire to have children. Genetic reproduction is off the table for me, but I’ve realized that (however I build it), I do want a family.
Finally, I feel a more desperate need to make a contribution and to do work that I feel connected to. I’ve decided to apply to a graduate program in social work. My goal is to eventually organize a nonprofit to help women trying to get out of adult entertainment and sex work. I actually made an attempt to do this at one point, but was quickly overwhelmed and had to quit. Several women reached out to me for help, so I feel a strong pull to strengthen my skills and make a second effort.
So, I’m not sure where the blog is going to go. I will, of course, keep my Mini, but as I slow down my travel and focus more on social work and family, I am not sure how “RV Adventure” this blog is going to be.
The last thing I want to say is how grateful I am to you for reading my blog! I’m sure it was more inconsequential to you, but for me to have this opportunity to write about myself, to be honest about myself, to integrate the things I am proud of with the things I am most ashamed of into one coherent sense of self has been such a gift. You may have just been reading because you are into RVs, but your attentiveness to me has been a profoundly healing experience.
P.S. As part of my own record of this journey, I may continue to blog on these new topics. I just know that most readers are RV readers, so wanted to thank you before you tuned out!
P.P.S. I have almost completely built out a Web site on RV stuff that I’ve learned, but I need some editors to check my work. If you are willing to check my work on RV mechanical and electrical stuff, please post your email address in a comment and I’ll send you the link. Thanks in advance!