I need to take a short break from this blog. I am sick of myself and my writing is starting to feel like narcissistic navel gazing.
All of my plans are still on. But, of course, I need to be more flexible and patient with regard to this journey. (Two things that seem to be a theme in things I am learning here from you.)
I need to focus on selling the house and getting out of debt first. After that, I can focus on buying an RV and taking my trip.
My hope is that all this happens this summer, but I am putting too much pressure on myself with deadlines. Goals and targets are good, but my arbitrary deadlines are kind of stupid and outside the scope of what I am truly hoping to accomplish.
I feel so grateful for the kind guidance I get from you all. I don’t know why you take the time to help me out (and others who are reading this?), but I do appreciate it. I feel like I must owe someone, somewhere, a huge payment. Maybe I just owe the universe a repayment of the kindness shown here to me.
I am not quitting the blog, but I do need to take a break to think or, better said, to stop thinking so much about myself.
I hope you are all doing well!
I will post an update on Monday.
Take care,
Jennifer
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I always look forward to reading your ‘blog in the mornings. I have a self imposed deadline to get back to full timing too and I doubt I’ll make it myself. Ill get there one day and you will too!
I can completely sympathize, as I’m in a very similar situation… I was admittedly living a bit vicariously through the “plan”- Creating kind of a “the better you do and the closer you got, the happier I became” thing; So no repayment necessary directly to me.
I have always seen goodness to be a bit of a play on a hot potato only it is a palatable heat, though it’s nice and warm to hold on to when it gets passed to you, you really need to pass it on… and the faster you do it the better.
Whenever you feel like just popping in to say hello, or even to talk about lighter topics, I and I’m sure others will be here to listen and share
Best,
A.S.
Rome wasn’t built in a day. Take some time away, think a little on your plans and come back fresh. Have a good weekend off, and hope you blog again on Monday!!!
*hugs*
Take some time off and focus on what’s important.
Talk to you soon.
I am not sick of reading your blog. I love hearing your ideas and plans. I know how overwhelming it can be to sell a house. We just sold our home we lived in for 38 years. While trying to sell it we buy another one. It was very hard. Not moving for many years it was difficult to imagine living somewhere else. Things have a way of working out as they are suppose to. This too will happen for you. Perhaps you have the right idea in selling your house first. Then you have time to do all the little things to get you ready for the RV. I don’t care what topic you want to talk about. I admire you for sharing. It gives a focus on life that not many people are willing to fess up to. We all have our issues. There is not a perfect life. Just know that there are people out there who enjoy reading about lives of others. Be kind to yourself…
Take care.
Some decisions we make. Others are made for us. Timing, in particular, is often out of our hands.
So far this blog has been largely about your decisions. But along the way, the most interesting bits were what slipped out about your life. You know, the stuff that happens to you while you are thinking about something else.
Decisions pile up pressure. Deadlines pile up more. Revisiting them every day in a blog…well, you get the picture. Eventually you need relief.
But life? It’s just life. And I’m certain that most of us would like to hear more about yours, when you feel like sharing.
I’m particularly looking forward to your first engine rebuild.
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Catch you later,
Bob
Good for you! Now THAT sounds like a plan. I, and all the others I’m sure, are pulling for the right and perfect house sale for you. Whenever you’re ready to come back I’ll be here. Good luck on your mechanics class. You’re laying a strong foundation so the dream you’re creating won’t fall down. I’ve gotten a lot of thoughtfulness and pleasure from your blog. You don’t owe anybody anything. You’re a great person!
Jennifer –
I think you are hard on yourself. Rather than looking at responses as people helping you out, think of it more as people sharing their experiences and/or opinions…? Also the bit about feeling like you owe someone something…nope. You don’t owe anyone. And no one owns you. It’s your life and you can share as much or as little as you want. I enjoy reading your candid comments as well as the insecurities that you share. Why? It humanizes you. I can relate and I’m sure many others can too.
Enjoy your weekend…let your thoughts wander where they may. Sometimes I find we obsess about our adventure and we want it to happen at the end of summer. Some days I feel great and feel we will make it happen and other days I feel like we are out of our minds and some days I even feel we don’t know how we are going to do this. It changes all the time. It’s all good.
Go easy on yourself.
Kari
Jennifer, remember that LIFE is what happens while we are busy making plans. I’m glad to see you slowing down a bit. The house will sell and you will find the right RV for you at the right time. Thanks for sharing your life with us. You owe us nothing. Belva
You are doing something I want very much to do, and hope to be able to do. It’s not merely about the notion of living in an RV; it’s a desire for a complete lifestyle change, a whole new outlook, and, I think, a dissatisfaction with how we’re “supposed” to live and where that has led us. Most people don’t write about that part of it, but you do, and I appreciate your honesty and openness.
In other words, you’re helping me just by doing what you’re doing and writing what you’re writing. So don’t worry about it.
I look forward to your posts whenever you feel up to getting back to it. Thank you.
My first comment here, but I have read your blog since the beginning. I think Kari articulated it perfectly in this comment thread. I have enjoyed walking with you in this journey, and I understand the self-imposed pressure to set a time line when you are anxious and when the idea of setting and meeting goals seems the way to move forward.
I also think it is natural and healthy to re-evaluate plans when it is clear the calender is not playing along. Do what feels responsible, and works for you. When you do go it will feel so much better if all your ducks are in a row first. I will keep checking your blog every day regardless of when you buy an RV or when you post again. Take your time.
I can’t figure out if this site is a hoax or just some financially cushioned manic depressive who’d rather gush emotionally online then take needed medication. $50K for an RV is absurd in your situation imo. Spend $10k on something used and see if you like the life style.
I’m sorry to sound harsh. If this is a hoax its well-crafted.