I get panic attacks about this blog.
It usually happens right before I go to bed. I just start freaking out and getting really afraid.
But I really have no idea what it is that I am afraid of.
People typically describe me as extremely private. But it’s not because I am ashamed of anything, I am just sort of that weird loner person who hangs out by herself.
I really like people. But I usually like for people to talk to me, not for me to talk to them.
My analyst thinks that my blogging about myself is a good thing. It’s like I am finally talking about myself and not just being that person that listens to everyone else.
I told her last week that I was kind of freaking out about it, but she encouraged me to continue.
I have analysis this morning.
I’m sure you guys will be the topic, once again.
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Good morning Jennifer!
I have been away for a couple of days so I was needing my blog fix! I caught up on your posts…
I hope that you don’t have to put too much more time or money into the house. I know all about trying to sell a house and its anything but fun!Try to remain calm and just think “RVing thoughts”!
I, again, think its awesome that you are taking the auto course! I’m so excited to hear about your experience. Some of my greatest accomplishments in life have actually been doing things that I “sucked” at! So have a blast doing it! Never mind getting it right the first go around.
Judging from your style of writing I would have never expected that you are afraid of people. I don’t really think you are “afraid of people” in general, but maybe afraid of what people may think about you. You are highly intelligent, you have an excellent personality, and posses a great sense of humor. You’re set! You have nothing to worry about. And (not to scare or detour you) you need to develop a bit of tough skin while traveling. Unfortunately not everyone you come across will be friendly. Thats where you have to stand your ground and not take crap from anyone. Then there are the people who want to “judge” you because you live in an RV. I found that smiling and killing them with kindness works every time. Those type of people can’t help that they were born ignorant!
You have nothing to fear or worry about as far as WHO you are. That probably sounds bizarre coming from someone who hasn’t even met you in person, right? But its funny how personality and soul pours through the computer.
Glad I got my blog fix in! I was starting to have withdrawals!
I hope your meeting went well this morning!
I think everyone has panic attacks about their blog here and there. My paranoia made me completely remove mine!
I like your blogs, I hope you continue!
And one of these days, we will meet along the road and have a good laugh and a toast….
To the blog!!!
Keep up the good work. I look forward to reading every one of your posts. This is quite the journey you are on and I find you to be quite brave, actually! Hang in there. And, keep writing!!!
Dear Angie, I am so happy to hear from you. Thank you for your upbeat perspective. I think I am making progress, ha ha.
Dear Karyn, I am really sorry your blog is gone, but glad you understand. Have you started another one? I found one and wondered if it was you…
Dear Barb, It is amazing how much warmth comes through your posts! I love your blog and always appreciate your encouragement.
Jennifer
Jennifer,
Never fear, the catharsis you’ll experience from writing will far outweigh the scary thoughts you might have about what’s actually being said.
You have a really interesting perspective and a readable writing style. Keep it up, we want more!
Dear Rene,
Thank you. I have learned so much from your blog. Your journey is a great inspiration to me.
I was just reading your post “Downsized? Who, Us?” – trying to remind myself that I don’t need as much stuff as I think!
Jennifer
All I can say is that it must be quite liberating to be able to post whatever you want for people to read and comment about. I might have to start my own personal blog and not tell any of my friends and family about it. It just seems… awesome.
Dear Wade,
I encourage you to do so. It is a pretty cool thing to be able to write *anything*, though I think that exercise is also what relates to some of the anxiety.
Jennifer
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